So I feel like this time in my life I should be working on painting, drawing, photography, & etc... like crazy. Considering this is the roughest thing I've been through... you would think I would be all over my art trying to express how I feel. But it's like I just can't get myself to that place yet... I was painting quite a bit after everything went down 3 months ago... but I was feeling like everything I painted sucked... like it just wasn't capturing what I wanted it to so I'd go grab the spray paint & destroy what I just worked on. And right now I'm just a little afraid.. thinking.. "This is the time I need my art the most and what if